Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Procrastination

It's been a while since I've put anything on here. Mostly because the stupid app on my phone keeps messing up when I try to publish anything. Honestly its probably best anyway as I was trying to come out of a negative place. But I'm back and fighting the good fight and trying to find what good I can in things.

I've just about completed my first course toward my RN. Its development t through the lifespan and it's been challenging to find the balance between work and the kids and school work. I guess I thought I would just be able to breeze through it. Or it would feel like it did when I went for my LPN. I literally feel as if I come home from work just to sit down and do school work until bed and now that I'm finishing this course I'm wondering why? I mean I want to learn the information however I have absolutely no desire to become a hospital nurse. Honestly I love what I'm doing now I just need to plan for my future better. There is no way I can survive my life with what I'm doing now so the obvious choice was to go for my RN. Ideally I would like to obtain my degree and then continue in the office setting, maybe as a case manager or something. My dream (for way longer than I've been a nurse) has always been to be some sort of health coach or holistic practitioner. I am just afraid there isn't a market in this area for it. Healthcare is a mess right now and everyone needs to be concerned with the bottom line. Whether we like it or not insurance companies have had to make some changes which caused a ripple effect. All healthcare facilities public and private have to employ people and keep the lights on. All employers have to do the same while offering competitive wages. We could argue all day about which caused the crisis we are in today but the end result is the same. People's health is poor. Personally I tend to look at things a little differently, maybe I'm right and maybe I'm not however I figure I don't have to worry about what the insurance is going to pay back or what the employer cost is. I see it as my job to concern myself with my patient. Yes singular patient because my focus is on whomever I am in a room with or in the phone with at that moment. My focus is how do I get this one person from a poor health state transitioned to a healthy state. Sometimes its easy and I just have to listen. Sometimes I have to encourage them and sometimes I have to advocate for them. The nice thing is though that all I have to worry about is them. There are people behind the scenes that take care of the bigger issues like keeping the lights on and things.

So wouldn't it be really cool if I could spend more time working with each individual and taking their overall health issues, like those that have several issues like diabetes, heart disease and maybe auto immune disorder and take the doctors recommendations and turn it unto achievable actions that help the patient move to good health? Just typing it gets me excited. The unfortunate part is most places (for now) aren't hiring this sort of person but hopefully in the future.

I've been thinking lately I need to get away for a bit. Grab a couple of friends and get the hell out of town for a few days. Maybe hike and drink a little and laugh. I think it needs to happen.

The whole pint of this was to procrastinate so I didn't have to work on my final exam for a while. I see I've said nothing and I still only have two questions done.